Where Does The Good Go?

First and foremost, HAPPY 7/11 👌🏽

Biiiiiiiiiiiiiiitch! Remember me?! I’m not even going to bother with providing y’all with an excuse. She’s back and thanks for being here! 🌸

It takes me a second to get over stuff. I’m definitely that “I’ll get over it, but let me be dramatic about it for a second” type of girl. Charlotte York once said that it should take you half the duration that anything took to get over it if it goes bad. For instance, if you took a month to do something and it doesn’t work out or it goes awry, you should take no more than 2 weeks to dwell on it and get over it. I’ve come to realize that that’s kind of bullshit. I know! I never thought I’d come to a point in life where I’d disagree with any knowledge imparted by the SATC ladies, but everyone should be on their own timeline. I’ve also come to realize that the idea of “closure” is such a TV made up word. That’s not a thing. You learn to let go of whatever idea you had in your head and move past it. You can fight me on this 👐🏽

I’m fine, guys! I’m sorry about the brief hiatus. I was just In My Feelings about this bird. Y’all know my bounce back is like no other. Your texts and messages meant a lot to me 🌸

I don’t believe in throwing people away, at least not anymore. I’ve come to a place where I’ve learned to appreciate the role anyone has ever played in my story. My struggle is dealing with the loss, if you will. The loss of having someone in your life that likes you in THAT way, no matter the length of time. It was nice. It inevitably invites that crippling feeling of loneliness and it’s not a good time. You know, it’s easy to get clouded with thoughts of not being good enough or feeling like a fool. It’s tough shit, but you do come around and realize that although he might’ve been very dreamy, he wasn’t the sun.

I’m the sun ☀️

I’m on that Grey’s Anatomy shit, y’all 😂

I learned a couple of lessons, had so many good laughs, and most importantly gained a really good friend. It was definitely a summer to remember. So, I guess you can say that’s where the good goes.

I do know this for sure…no matter who messed with your heart or how long it takes to recover, you’ll never get through it without your friends (assistants)❤

CURRENT OBSESSION

Everything Is Love ❤ THIS JOINT ALBUM, Y’ALL!! Can you believe?! It’s everything. You hoes can now stream it everywhere!

SONG OF THE MONTH

Summer by Beyoncé and Jay Z! This song is such a summer vibe, guys. It’s literally my favorite song on the album! Treat yaself and take a listen! 👂🏽

I missed y’all! I missed sharing and getting stuff out through this medium. I promise I’ll be back soon! Look at these messages I got after the hiatus. Y’all are a big ass mess 😂

I’m gonna go drink some water now and see where that takes me.

XO,

Carlos 🌸

Summer Lovin’

Hello! 🙋

The other day, my gurl John Anthony was like, “Hey didn’t you have a blog?” I was like, “Oh muh gawd! Who am I?” I get a man and forget how to act! 😂

So much has happened since May. Although it feels like just yesterday I was crying (happy tears) like a biotch in the middle of Times Square! 😅

This summer has been good to me! I’ve had a lot of memorable summers in my life, but this one is definitely up there. I went to NYC, I was in the hospital for the very first since I was born, I had surgery, my bff asked me to be her Maid of Honor, I made some amazing new friends, and I came across a very special person on a Wednesday night at Crocker 🙂

He’s…in a word, perfect. He hates when I say that, but it’s true! He’s probably the most interesting person I’ve ever met and that’s my favorite thing about him. I look like I slept with a hanger in my mouth when I’m around him or talk about him because he constantly keeps me smiling. I’m going to stop now because he’s going to make fun of me for all of the above 😅😒 Today is our two month anniversary and I just feel really thankful that he had bigger balls than I did and asked my assistant for my number! I never thought that cuddling and listening to records would be my favorite thing to do with anyone. I’m blessed that it’s with you, lil bird 🐣😍

And that’s the end of The Corn ball Fest! 😅 The summer is coming to an end, “but…oh, those suuuhuummeeeer….NIIIIIII-HIIIIIIIIIIIGHTS!!!” *In my best Danny Zuko

WEEKLY OBSESSION!

American Vogue’s September Issue!

Not only because Beyoncé was the cover girl, but because FALL/WINTER FASHION! It looks like some of the big trends for this fall are prints that reference furniture fabrics, a touch of fur, Eighties Redux, and shiny fabrics! Here are some looks:

(This is a SS16 look, but acceptable for Fall ;))

SONG OF THE WEEK!

https://youtu.be/eJSik6ejkr0

Runnin’ (Lose It All) by Naughty Boy feat. Beyoncé and Arrow Benjamin

This song and video are absolutely beautiful! Beyoncé obvs slays.

Until next time! 💜

XO,

Carlos

There’s A Boy I Know! He’s The One I Dream Of!

Hello, hello, hello!

There are a lot of exciting things happening in my life, and I’d like to share a little sum sum with you guys!

So, there’s a boy I’ve been talking to for a little over a year now. We kind of fell out of touch for awhile, but we recently reconnected sometime towards the end of October. He’s cute, funny, caring, and has the most loveable laugh I’ve ever heard!

Our schedules kind of prevented us from hanging out a lot. We’re both crazy busy. I’m always running around everywhere, and he’s a hair stylist, so, imagine that. We always somehow managed to figure something out.

I knew I wanted him to be my boyfriend, and I think he knew too, but I didn’t want to jump into anything if I couldn’t give him the time he deserved. Through all the crazy that goes on in my life, he stuck through it. That told me a lot.

We were at a pub when it happened. I know, right?! It was so meant to be haha! This all happened because Ang licked his arm (weirdo, I know) and I said,”Get off my man!” I think you guys can figure out what happened after.

In that moment, it felt right to commit to him. I’ve been running around this whole city like a chicken with her head chopped off, and I needed to finally stand still with someone. He’s the perfect guy to do that with 🙂

This an exciting time for me, and I can’t wait to see what comes next!  Thank you all for the love and support! 🙂

REAL QUICK.

Beyoncé.

Ummm, did that album and release blow your mind or what?! Girls, I’m still getting my loyfe! SUCH A SEXY ALBUM. I have to admit, the lyrics made me uncomfy a bit at first. Only because Beyoncé is like my sister, and I’m not used to her saying things like, “He Monica Lewinskied all on my gown. Oh baby baby, he forgot a towel.” Umm HELLO! Steamy. Favorite tracks so far Drunk In Love, Blow, Partician, XO and Flawless. This album is legit as fuck.

Get into it!

Until next time!

Love,

Carlos